Monday, December 28, 2015

My Overnight Testimony

This is from June 18 of this year...

Lately I have been having quite a few dreams about the coming of Jesus and the signs leading to it. These signs include falling stars and blood moons. In some of the past few dreams that I have had, I seen some vivid images. 

In one dream that I had, I looked up at the sky, which looked bright pink and yellowish because the sun was setting, and saw a very large full moon. It was very pink. Because this was such an unusual sight, it instantly made me think of the coming of our Lord. 

Another night I had a different dream vision. Two dream visions actually. I was at home and everyone was there. It was night. I was in the bathroom and I looked out the back window and saw another large moon. It was a blood moon but not as red. It was a crescent moon and it was three times the size of an average moon. It was also very unusual, but I still saw it as beautiful. 

That same night I had a second prophetic dream vision. I was outside. It was still light out and the sun was setting again but the sky was clear and very blue. Remember the falling stars I mentioned earlier? Well, I looked out in a distance in the sky and saw a bright star slowly falling downward with a string of dust and fire trailing behind it (an asteroid). It was really far away and a random guy next to me says that the falling star may have reached California (and not North Carolina, where I am). At his poin, I'm petrified because I'm afraid that the falling stars will come directly towards us. Seconds later, several falling stars were heading towards us. As they were getting closer my heart pounded tremendously, so much that I actually feel it in my sleep. They come closer and everyone starts to run and panic. Before the stars catch us I wake up at dawn, trying to shake the dream off...

I share these dream visions by means of warning signs that our Lord Jesus is coming very soon.

Ever since I had those dream visions I could not get them out of my mind. They were slowly starting to disturb my spirit and I could not pinpoint exactly why? Do I not feel like I'm ready for judgement? Am I concerned for the salvation of others? Is this telling me that I need to share the gospel more readily?

One night as I was laying down for bed, the coming was so heavy on my mind , my spirit. It was starting to make me more and more anxious. With the lights off in my bedroom and my blinds open (I always sleep with them open), I can see that it is cloudy outside and lightening is flashing constantly, although there is no storm. For some reason, the lightening really added to my anxiety. It somehow reminded me of the falling stars.

I try to find peace and comfort in my bed but my body is so tense and cold that I cannot get comfortable. I try to calm myself, but I fail at doing that too. I am one of those people who sometimes overthinks, over feels, and imagine things to a point where I'll start to drive myself crazy. It got to the point where I started to weep, tears rolling down my face. I've heard about the end ever since my late teen years (26 now) and now it is starting to feel more and more real, and it felt terrifying. 

At this point, tears and all, full of fear that doesn't even come from God, I send up a quiet prayer to Him. I don't remember what I said verbatim, but it went something like this,

"Jesus,I need You right now. Please calm my spirit. Forgive me for being so anxious about your coming. For I know the fear does not come from You. I also know that the coming of Your glory should not be a fearful event, but a joyful one. Please calm my spirit Lord, in Jesus name, amen."

Right after I pray, I slip into a daydream—something I do incessantly—and imagine that I'm having a conversation with my wiser inner voice (sounds strange, I know). 

I hear my wise voice say, "Why are you sad? As a child of Christ, the coming of our Lord should be something to look forward to. Instead of being so fearful, you should be rejoicing more now than ever! I know it may not make much sense to you right now, but we as Christians should look forward to the coming of Christ because that is when He rescues His children and takes them to their true home which is in Heaven with HIM for all eternity, in Jesus name. So don't be so afraid of what's going to happen because you are going to be alright. You are already alright! You are SAVED and have been so faithful to Him. IfGod has you in the palm of His hand , He will never let you fall. Ever. God loves you so much. Don't let your fear cripple you here when you should be rejoicing. Beauty only lies ahead. Just trust Him; He's got you."

It's like Jesus was speaking to me in my own daydream. As I heard these comforting words, my body starts to feel more warm and relaxed. It was the Lord. He heard my cry and delivered me and spoke to me in the midnight hour! He graciously feeds my spirit with positive words until I drift off into a peaceful sleep.

I wake up early the next morning with peace, calm, and so much joy in my spirit. Isn't God great?! And to seal my secure spirit, I came across a verse that same morning during my quiet scripture study with the Lord,

"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. So we will not fear when earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea." ~ Psalm 46:1-2