Monday, December 28, 2015

My Overnight Testimony

This is from June 18 of this year...

Lately I have been having quite a few dreams about the coming of Jesus and the signs leading to it. These signs include falling stars and blood moons. In some of the past few dreams that I have had, I seen some vivid images. 

In one dream that I had, I looked up at the sky, which looked bright pink and yellowish because the sun was setting, and saw a very large full moon. It was very pink. Because this was such an unusual sight, it instantly made me think of the coming of our Lord. 

Another night I had a different dream vision. Two dream visions actually. I was at home and everyone was there. It was night. I was in the bathroom and I looked out the back window and saw another large moon. It was a blood moon but not as red. It was a crescent moon and it was three times the size of an average moon. It was also very unusual, but I still saw it as beautiful. 

That same night I had a second prophetic dream vision. I was outside. It was still light out and the sun was setting again but the sky was clear and very blue. Remember the falling stars I mentioned earlier? Well, I looked out in a distance in the sky and saw a bright star slowly falling downward with a string of dust and fire trailing behind it (an asteroid). It was really far away and a random guy next to me says that the falling star may have reached California (and not North Carolina, where I am). At his poin, I'm petrified because I'm afraid that the falling stars will come directly towards us. Seconds later, several falling stars were heading towards us. As they were getting closer my heart pounded tremendously, so much that I actually feel it in my sleep. They come closer and everyone starts to run and panic. Before the stars catch us I wake up at dawn, trying to shake the dream off...

I share these dream visions by means of warning signs that our Lord Jesus is coming very soon.

Ever since I had those dream visions I could not get them out of my mind. They were slowly starting to disturb my spirit and I could not pinpoint exactly why? Do I not feel like I'm ready for judgement? Am I concerned for the salvation of others? Is this telling me that I need to share the gospel more readily?

One night as I was laying down for bed, the coming was so heavy on my mind , my spirit. It was starting to make me more and more anxious. With the lights off in my bedroom and my blinds open (I always sleep with them open), I can see that it is cloudy outside and lightening is flashing constantly, although there is no storm. For some reason, the lightening really added to my anxiety. It somehow reminded me of the falling stars.

I try to find peace and comfort in my bed but my body is so tense and cold that I cannot get comfortable. I try to calm myself, but I fail at doing that too. I am one of those people who sometimes overthinks, over feels, and imagine things to a point where I'll start to drive myself crazy. It got to the point where I started to weep, tears rolling down my face. I've heard about the end ever since my late teen years (26 now) and now it is starting to feel more and more real, and it felt terrifying. 

At this point, tears and all, full of fear that doesn't even come from God, I send up a quiet prayer to Him. I don't remember what I said verbatim, but it went something like this,

"Jesus,I need You right now. Please calm my spirit. Forgive me for being so anxious about your coming. For I know the fear does not come from You. I also know that the coming of Your glory should not be a fearful event, but a joyful one. Please calm my spirit Lord, in Jesus name, amen."

Right after I pray, I slip into a daydream—something I do incessantly—and imagine that I'm having a conversation with my wiser inner voice (sounds strange, I know). 

I hear my wise voice say, "Why are you sad? As a child of Christ, the coming of our Lord should be something to look forward to. Instead of being so fearful, you should be rejoicing more now than ever! I know it may not make much sense to you right now, but we as Christians should look forward to the coming of Christ because that is when He rescues His children and takes them to their true home which is in Heaven with HIM for all eternity, in Jesus name. So don't be so afraid of what's going to happen because you are going to be alright. You are already alright! You are SAVED and have been so faithful to Him. IfGod has you in the palm of His hand , He will never let you fall. Ever. God loves you so much. Don't let your fear cripple you here when you should be rejoicing. Beauty only lies ahead. Just trust Him; He's got you."

It's like Jesus was speaking to me in my own daydream. As I heard these comforting words, my body starts to feel more warm and relaxed. It was the Lord. He heard my cry and delivered me and spoke to me in the midnight hour! He graciously feeds my spirit with positive words until I drift off into a peaceful sleep.

I wake up early the next morning with peace, calm, and so much joy in my spirit. Isn't God great?! And to seal my secure spirit, I came across a verse that same morning during my quiet scripture study with the Lord,

"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. So we will not fear when earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea." ~ Psalm 46:1-2

Monday, August 3, 2015

"I Have Chosen You"

This is something that God spoke to my spirit very recently when some people had second thoughts about me following the calling that God has for my life. 

He said:

"If you live your life the way man expects you, you will never win in life. However if you live your life the way that I, your Lord and Savior, desires you to live, I will bless you abundantly, give you prosperity and longevity. I will grant you the fruits of the spirit: joy, love , peace, goodness, and long suffering.

"You are my child and I love you deeply, more than your parents, siblings, children, and friends combined! I have given you a purpose in your life. This purpose will glorify Me and build the Kingdom.

"Know that I have blessed you, my beloved child, with the gifts and the absolutes to carry out this good

work for my Kingdom and for the saving of many souls who need to know Me. 

"Also, my child, know that there will be many people who will doubt your calling. The enemy will use the closest people to you—family, friends—to bring you down. I tell you, do not listen to them. Those doubts are lies from the enemy. Satan knows that you are a child of The Most High; he is AFRAID of you!! He is afraid of the power you have because of Me! He is cowering in fear because he does not want you to fulfill the calling that I have for your life. So he lurks around, looking for people he can use; people who he can speak his lies through to try to affect you. 

"Lean on me, my precious child, and seek my reassurance, my Presence. Be reminded that I, your loving God, BELIEVES in you even if the entire world does not. Do you not know that I can use even the most flawed person for the biggest task? That is a reflection of My power! Do you think that I can't use you? I chose you because I see the many things in you that gives you every reason to succeed in your calling!!

"What the world thinks of you is nothing compared to what I know about you, My beloved. When I look at you, I don't see what the world sees. No. When I look at you, I see the person I created you to be. I see you perfect and without fault. I see you confident and strong. I see you prosperous and successful. I see you victorious. I see you as am overcomer. I see you as the light of the world. 

"Most of all when I look at you, what do I see? I see… a reflection of Me."

Let's make a decision. Are we going to feed into the worldy lies of the enemy? Or will we agree and internalize the comforting affirmations of our God? The only person who can get in the way of the calling that God has for our lives is ourselves. We must believe in the gifts that He has given us. If God calls us, He must have confidence is us knowing that we have the ability to overcome all obstacles and live out loud for Christ

Quiet Confidence

 God spoke to me yesterday. 

Being quiet is connected to many greatness. But why is quietness constantly compared to being mousy, being evil, or being "dumb" or simple? Why is a quiet person looked down upon as something that's small?

I've always felt a little different, been misinterpreted and underestimated because of my unique quietness. It was very hurtful and for a long time, I thought that maybe something was wrong with me.

Until God told me different. 

He tells me so many beautiful things about how my quietness is, in fact, a gift. But the most recent thing He told me just blew my mind.

He said

"Look at the butterfly, which never makes a sound. It spreads its wings and shows its beauty to all creation. It flies high and blessed the the sights and the spirits of those who see it. They are quiet, gentle, and beautiful, just like you, My precious child. You, though quiet and gentle and beautiful like a butterfly, can open up your wings and fly around, spreading your beauty everywhere. 

"Look also at the sun. The sun makes no noise, yet it shines brighter than everything in the universe. It brings light to the world, it IS the light of the world, it gives life and energy, it light the path for others to see what is in front of them and what is around them, it warms up all it touches.

"Know that I, your Lord, am the Light, and the Light is in you!

"Beloved, what I'm saying is that you can be quiet and still be remarkable. You don't always need words to bless others because actions speak so much louder. You can still shine and invigorate like the sun and you most certainly can fly like a gentle butterfly and bless the world with your beauty that I have given you. Know that your quiet and gentle spirit is a blessing from me; it is simply precious in my sight. 

"I love you with an everlasting love."

~From God to You

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Drawing Near--Inspired by Devotion

"But is is good for me to draw near to God*; I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may* declare all Your works."
~Psalm 73:28

Today I was challenged by God to do my devotions a little differently. He told me (mainly through other beloved believers) to break down a verse of my choice in segments, elaborate on how they speak to me, and include cross references that were provided in my Bible to aid my scripture study.

So here goes..

I will begin with "But it is good for me to draw near to God." When I think and read this segment, it makes me think of how comforting it is to come near to the Lord at any given moment. I feel as though when I come near to God, I find a place of love, safety, peace, and joy. I feel as though nothing can bring me down when I'm with the Lord because he is so many things to me:
  • My Father
  • My Rock
  • My Savior
  • My Provider
  • My Comforter
  • My Living Water
  • My Daily Hope
  • My Living Word
  • My Shepherd
  • My Lord
  • My Guide
  • My Daily Bread
  • My Healer
  • My Redeemer
  • My Light
  • My Fortress
  • My Creator
  • My Heartbeat
  • My Strength 
  • My Lifeline
My everything (to be honest, some of these bullet points came up as I was typing this)!! Because GOD IS, I can feel safe and reassured knowing that I will always have joy and know that all will be well in Jesus name!

Now with this segment, I came across some cross references that were provided for me: 
  • Hebrews 10:22--"Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with a pure conscience."
  • James 4:8--"Come near to God and He will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double minded."
I love cross references because they can amplify the meaning and the indication of a given verse. These referenced verses tell me that drawing near to God means that we must "be sincere" and have a clear conscience...meaning that we must always repent and ask for forgiveness when we come to the Lord. If we don't repent, if we harbor sin in our hearts, then God will not hear us. We must wash our hands and purify our hearts and be clean before the Lord before telling Him anything.

My next breakdown is "...I have put my trust in the Lord GOD..." The cross references are as follows:

  • Psalm 116:10--"I trusted in the Lord when I said, 'I am greatly afflicted.'"
  • 2 Corinthians 4:13--"It is written, 'I believed, therefore I have spoken.' Since we have the same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak."
This segment makes me think (rhetorically, of course) why put my trust in God? Again, it is not only because He can, but because He IS. There is no greater power and no other being who performs better, more miraculous deeds than our Loving Father. The Bible is full of wondrous deeds of The Lord and He still performs them today (Heb. 13:8)! I have put my trust in Him, not only because God can, but because He is!!

I'm going to reflect on the cross references separately since they puzzled me a bit in relation to my main verse.

Psalm 116:10 says that the psalmist trusted in God when he admitted that he was afflicted. I believe that he is saying that he will trust God even in his emotional state because--perhaps--he knows that God knows what He is doing. God is using the psalmist's sadness as a blessing for himself and for others. He is being used as a testimony to bless and inspire others who are broken and in need. This reminds me a lot of Ecclesiastes chapter 7, verse 3: "Frustration is better than laughter, because a sad face is good for the heart."

The second referenced verse tells me that we speak what we believe, and when we believe, we begin to see a manifestation of our words. 

Okay, let me rephrase that. 

When we believe something, we speak it, and when we speak it with faith, our faith brings it to reality. This is with God's help, of course, because it is the power of the faith that He gives us that makes our heart's desires a reality. God helps us to believe in the unseen (2 Corinth. 4:18). This leads me to the final segment of this verse.

"That I may declare all of your works." There are no cross references here, but this segment is a powerful one. It reminds me of witnessing to others, especially unbelievers. If we want to captivate unbelievers, we tell them how God saved us, performed miracles in our lives--no matter how big or small--and how He blesses us with the fruits of the spirit (Galatians 5:22). 

We as Christians are just an empty vessel waiting to be used by God to fill the world with His heart. But first, we draw near to Him with a sincere, repentant heart and trust Him for everything that He is.

Well, there you have it! This was my first time doing what I like to call an "amplified devotion." I can say that this method of scripture study will help me to pull more knowledge and insight from God's Word. I enjoyed this method very much and will be using it for now on. I'm excited!! However if there is anything that you did not agree with, or if you have any different revelations while reading, please let me know or comment below. :)

God bless you always!

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Don't Be Afraid, Just Believe

They told him, "We have seen the Lord."

But [Thomas] replied, "I won't believe it unless I see the nail wounds in His hands, put my fingers into them, and place my hand into the wound in his side."

~John 20:25

"I'll believe it when I see it" is a very wildly spoken expression, especially in the world. In the worldly realm, it may make sense. But in the Godly, spiritual realm we must believe in order to see. If we know God, like, really know Him, and believe in His power (whether we've seen His wondrous miracles or not), and if we know that He can perform miracles every day, then the Lord will graciously show Himself to us. Hw will show up in a situation and show out. All we have to do is pray and believe.

The Word says that when we pray with a heart full of faith (meaning we must believe that the Lord has already done what we're praying that He will do), we will be given what we ask for [Matt. 21:22]! This is how God rewards our faith. If we believe in His power, He will bless us with our heart's desires.

No more negative attitudes.
No more being worry warts.
No more doubting.
No more fears.

This is not how God designed the world; this is not how He intended for us to live. Our loving Jesus died on the cross for us so that we can live a life free of worries, fear, doubting, and unbelieving (something that I constantly remind myself of because I tend to get nervous and anxious a lot). Satan brought all of these negative emotions into the world when he tricked Adam and Eve way at the beginning...but GOD!!! Jesus came and bled for us to restore what was lost: peace, innocence, security, joy, so much more.

So with God by our side, why should we be fearful? Why should we doubt? Why should we worry at all? By allowing ourselves to sulk in these negative emotions, we are not glorifying God.

Why is this?

Because when we worry--as my mom would tell me--we lack faith in God. It's like we don't believe in God's power. Fear is a spirit that comes, not from God, but from Satan. If we let fear control us, we let Satan control us which will ultimately lead us to our downfall as children of the Most High, if we continue to let it be this way. With fear controlling us, the devil has us right where he wants us, keeping us from doing the will of God that is going to bring good to the world and to our own lives.

We must always remind ourselves that God is always with us, no matter how out of hand our situations get. God is for us and no one (or nothing!) can ever be against us in Jesus name!

God knows our needs. So we must tell Him our needs and BELIEVE that He will come through us like a storm raining down blessings and favor upon our heads. It is worth saying again: we must believe it to see it. Always remember that God has us in the palm of His mighty hands. If He is holding us, then we will never fall. 

God loves you so much!

Friday, May 29, 2015


God speaks to His children in ways that we as unique individuals can understand. He Knows that I'm a nature lover and one of His many magnificent ways of speaking to me is through nature. God  shows Himself to me on a random cloudy day with the sun rays beaming through the clouds, with the relaxing sound of pouring rain putting me at ease whenever I'm anxious, and with waking up to the beautiful blue morning sky and the songs of joyful birds greeting me lovingly with a new day.

Well, something beautiful happened one day not too long ago and of course it was from the Good Lord. 

It was when I was still living on campus and attending classes. I remember having frustrations that day dealing with school work, my mom's job situations, and--believe it or not--not being in the mood for going out in public and putting up with crowds. Later on that evening while I was out and about, I had gotten so frustrated that I had to find a quiet place (it ended up being a student lounge) to shed a few good tears. I just needed to let it out, my emotions.

I remembered that I was to meet with my accountability group from my Pinky Promise Bible study club, so I went uptairs to the room. I had stopped crying and soon after, it started to rain. 

The rain got heavier.

Still feeling just a little somber I go on my smartphone, open my Instapray app and post a prayer request saying, "prayers for me please..." Within minutes, my heart, my spirit feels lighter. 

Someone was praying for me, I know it. Perhaps God read my heartfelt tears as prayers and saw that I used my faith in asking for prayers.

I gathered with my sisters in Christ and we share with one another whatever is going on in our lives at the moment, good or bad, and also share anything that we need prayer about. We also laugh, show Christlike love, and just have a good time in each other's presence.

The rain got lighter. I could see it out the window sitting across from me. Pretty soon a bright, full beautiful rainbow stretched across the sky! It was just gorgeous! I saw nothing but God. It stayed for ten minutes.

In retrospect, seeing that miracle reminds me that after a little rain, or a storm, there is a rainbow. A rainbow which signifies joy, peace, victory, strength (for withstanding the storm), and deliverance. I repeat, deliverance.

It was God's way of telling me that everything is going to be OK. Every little thing. No need to worry, our God, our loving God, is always with us, carrying us through it all.

After every storm, every rainfall, there is a rainbow. A beautiful reminder that God also tells His children: that he will never leave nor forsake us.

Needless to say, I felt much better after seeing His loving reminder.


Saturday, April 4, 2015

The Little Things That God Does...

Thank You for Your love, Lord,
I'm feeling it right now.
It fills me,
It fills my spirit with peace,
My heart with Your love.
Warmth enfolds me,
I lift my hands,
Stretch out my arms, and say,
"I love You, Jesus."
You wrap Your arms around me,
I smile, You smile,
My heart leaps and rejoices.
How great is Your love O God!
When I pray,
You lay Your hands upon me.
When I read Your Word,
You gently hold my hand.
At night when I lay in bed,
I feel safe in Your warm embrace,
And when I wake,
I still feel You holding me,
With the sunlight beaming on my face,
Like a "good morning" kiss
From You, 
My loving God.

I wrote this verse one day when I was just feeling like...blah. But God brough me right out of that funk and brought me straight to Him. 

I didn't know why I was feeling this way. I was not in a great mood, but I was not in a sour one, either. I wake up to the beautiful, fluffy white snow falling outside of my bedroom window, mom's delightfully warm and delicious cream of wheat, and my favorite hazelnut coffee.

But there was no Jesus time.

I didn't say my morning prayer, crack open my Bible, nor did I read any of my devotionals--and I have three devotional applications! That's why I was feeling empty. It was because I did not spend any personal time with my Lord and Savior like I do every morning before I start my day. A day of my own just isn't complete without Him and being led by my own distractions cannot really serve as an excuse because GOD is more important. Far more important.

That very afternoon, I was at the peak of my "blah" mood. I didn't know what I wanted to do. I didn't want to read, do homework, listen to music, or even write. It was slowly...quietly driving me crazy!

I knew at least one thing I could do: pray. Right then and there, at that very moment, I just prayed, "Jesus, please get me out of this mood. I don't want to feel this way. Just a simple prayer.

Moments after, the sun outside of my window slipped from under the clouds and beamed its bright, warm light on me.

It was God. I felt Him.

In spirit I heard The Lord say, "Come. I am here and I love you. Come to Me and renew yourself in My presence."

The love I felt at that moment was just simply...beautiful. It was warm, comforting. It was reassuring. It was secure, everlasting, infinite love. 

The sun disappeared back behind the clouds. Jesus told me what I needed to do. He just wanted my time, and I knew that I needed His time. The Lord has His ways of telling His children to come to Him. He is just so gentle with the way He tells us. So gentle that I have to quiet myself and my surroundings to hear His voice. He is also very gracious and patient with us. I thank Him and find it so amazing how quickly He answered my simple prayer. 

Jesus has all that we need to be filled and satisfied. 

"You, God, are my God,
    earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
    my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
    where there is no water."
             ~Psalm 63:1

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Hope In the Holy Spirit

**Inspired from my daily devotions**

Knowing that God loves us and is with us gives us hope alone.

"For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers,  nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord."~Romans 8:38-39

It is honestly so comforting to know that NOTHING will ever separate us from the love of God. Being that death, demons, the present or future, or our sins can never stop God from loving us means that He loves us very strongly. Make that infinitely strong love.


This wonderful man DIED for us! He literally gave up His life to give us life when we were dead; when we were still sinners who were probably the farthest from being lovable. 

That is real love. 
How could we think that The Lord doesn't love us?
Even sometimes?
His love is everlasting,
Never ending.

There is nothing we can ever do to make God stop loving us. Now, this doesn't mean that we can go on sinning and take advantage of the amazing grace that God has given us.

Not at all.

The good Lord will always be gracious and forgive us. But when we repent, we must change our ways to suit the ways of the Lord. For example, I can repent and ask for God to forgive me for being lazy. But just because He forgives me, doesn't mean that I can go on being lazy because I know He'll forgive me in the future, it means that I have to change my ways and work on being more hardworking.

"26 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. 27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God." ~Romans 8:26-27

Tears are prayers.

In times of trial, when we cannot articulate what to say to God, the Holy Spirit intercedes for us. Our prayers are then manifested as tears, moans, and groans. The best part about this is that God understands those prayers! It is a language that He speaks. The Holy Spirit is always there to help us in our weakness. It is God who is with us listening to our voiceless, heartfelt prayers.

Isn't that amazing?

Yes! It is a blessing to know that we don't always need words to express our prayers. It's even a bigger blessing to know that God hears us and WILL answer us and bless us in time. He notices every single tear that drops from from those eyes. He will come by your side and put His loving arm around you, telling you that it will be okay.

God searches our hearts. So when we can't form words, we can just fall to our knees, or back on our beds, and just say, "Lord..." and let your heart do the talking. God will listen. He's always there waiting patiently on you.

Scream if you need to, 
Or just cry silent tears,
God will help you,
He will carry you
To the joy 
That lies ahead.

 that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love,  may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
~Ephesians 3:16-19

Right when we are born again God gives us the wonderful gift of the Holy Spirit. Now the Holy Spirit will always be there in good, joyful times and also in times of trial. The Holy Spirit (God) will, in painful times, always be close to us, loving us, comforting us, strengthening us, and helping us through our situations.

Praise Jesus!!

It is truly amazing to know that The Lord is always close to us when He just feels so far? That is important to remember, not only in stressful moments, but also in moments of joy. 

It is also important to give God thanks at all times, even when it doesn't make sense to.

That's true worship. I will get you out of the deepest pit.

Praise Him in the dark,
He will bring you to the light.