Sunday, August 3, 2014

Where God Guides, He Provides



I’d rather walk in the dark with God
Than go alone in the light;
I’d rather walk by faith with Him
Than go alone by sight.
—Anon.
Hello! I would like to tell you that there is no reason to be afraid of your future. To many, knowing that God will be there is more than enough to satisfy them because we know that God will provide wherever He guides us! Don't be afraid to walk in the dark…I know it may seem fearful and it's okay to be, but just let God hold your hand through it all. Trust!!! He will walk with you all the way to the light!! 

Just don't forget to praise Him on your journey. Remember when praises go up, blessings come down! I know that saying is trite, but it's also very true :D

Much love!!

Friday, July 18, 2014

God Collects Our Tears

God is with you through it all, collecting our tears and keeping track of them. He understands our hearts, our emotions, and pain. It is in testing times like this—no matter how large or small—when He is nearest to us (God is near the brokenhearted Ps. 34:18). 

It is in times like this when His glory is revealed and when He is working in us and around us. Once we put our belief in Him and draw Him near, we see blessings unfold right before our eyes! 

So no matter how difficult it may be, true worship happens when we serve God in the most difficult  trying times. This puts a BIG smile on His face and He reward us with JOY. Again, God collects our tears. He sees each tear that falls down our cheek. So please don't think you're alone :) our tears are really prayers!!




Wednesday, June 11, 2014

There is Beauty in Doing ~Nothing~

Do you know that feeling when you are just sitting around with nothing to do? I mean nothing? Nowhere to go, no one around at the moment, not even a good show to watch on television? I've been there; we've all been there. But could there be any meaning in those dull moments?

Possibly!

When you literally have nothing to do, do just that: NOTHING. It's only when we do "nothing" when God really speaks to us. Whenever we find ourselves in those dull moments, we can just sit back in our bedroom or go outdoors and simply sit on your front or back porch and melt into your surroundings. Mute everything. Deafen yourself to all modernized sounds even if it means turning off your television, radio, or silencing your phone and just listen. Listen to nature, the caroling birds, the wind in the trees, ocean waves, running water, wherever you are! Just listen to your natural surroundings. Feel the caress of the soft wind, the sun on your face, even the cool raindrops on your feet. It is in moments like these you can really just listen to your thoughts and your heart. It could be a soul-searching moment when you become aware to your true self and your desires; what you want out of life. You can also get in touch with your inner self and find inner peace and inner strength. Most importantly, you can hear what GOD has to say to you! His voice can be heard beyond the soft winds, through the sunlight peeping through the clouds, or just a fleeting thought.

So, whenever you find yourself with nothing to do, just sit back silence everything and listen. Talk to God and hear what He has to say to you. 

May God bless you fully!! 

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

No Fear of Death in Jesus--Creative Dialogue

One afternoon I was listening to a gospel song "In Christ Alone" when I came up with this internal dialogue.

Me: *prayer request* I've been sooo scared lately. I don't know why but the fear of death is deeply troubling my soul. I mean, not knowing what's going to happen right after is killing me! I really need prayers to put my heart and mind at ease. I can't even sleep at night because I end up dreaming about it. Please help me!


Melly: Aww, I totally understand why you're scared, sweetie...I really do! Tell me, have you accepted Christ as your personal Savior?


Me: Yes, I have. I believed that he died for us and was raised from the dead. I believe that with my whole heart.


Melly: Great! Do you have a relationship with Him? Like, do you spend time with Him daily? You know, prayer, reading the Bible, worship?


Me: Yes I do! I do all of that! I obey the Lord as much as I can and I even strive to be more like Jesus.


Melly: Awesome! Do you repent every day and ask for forgiveness?


Me: Of course. I do that every night before bed. 


Melly: Perfect! It seems to me that you have nothing to be afraid of.


Me: I don't know :( I get so hard on myself. I'm so imperfect. Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough to to enter God's kingdom.


Melly: Oh, no! Never think that!! That fear is coming from the enemy!! You see, as Christians, we should never have any fear in death because we believe wholeheartedly that Jesus walked this world, died for US, and was raised. It is through HIM we inherit eternal life. The Word says that those who believe in Him shall never perish, but have everlasting life! So as Christian believers, we are taught that we will live with our Father in Heaven once we pass away from this world. With that being said, the thought of death or the coming of Jesus should bring us JOY and PEACE because we will be coming home to HIM! Death should actually be something to look forward to and nothing to fear at all. :)


Me: Ah, okay. So I should look forward to death then??


Melly: OF course! And based on what you just told me, you appear to be a wonderful Child of God with a beautiful spirit. I can just tell that already. :)


Me: Aww, thank you Melly. You know, I'm starting to feel more at ease. Thank you sooo much for your encouraging words! I'll just pray that I'm emotionally, spiritually, and mentaly ready when I'm called home then, huh?


Melly: Yes! Prayer is always key! And you're very welcome :) I'm glad I could help. Very glad. Oh, and don't worry about being so imperfect. All Christians are. But God knows very well that we are flawed and that we will fail Him every single day. But that's the beauty of salvation!!! That's exactly why Jesus died for us so that we may repent and forgiven and inherit eternal life. And you have to realize, we as humans can never be perfect enough for God. We're all sinners. BUT He loves us just as we are!! He loves us with a love that's so deep and infinite that we can't even begin to comprehend it! Now that should make you feel good, well, awesome! 


Me: Glory to God!! It does! And I can already feel my spirit changing. I tell you, I have less fear now. :)


Melly: God bless you! That's the power of God moving in you! I'm so glad you feel better.


Me: Me too! And I can't even begin to thank you. You've helped me so much!

Melly: Aww :) Thank God, not just me. He speaks through His people. 


Me: Yes He does. Praise Him! God bless you, Melly.


Melly: God bless you even more. I'm here whenever you want to talk. :)


Me: Thank you.


Melly: You're very welcome :)


Wednesday, June 4, 2014

The Perfect Storm





It was dark, very dark.
So dark, I could not see in front of me,
Nor around me or behind me.

It was cold, very cold.
As I was walking,
Struggling in the cold and pouring rain,
Trying to keep safe and warm,
People passed me by.
Not a soul asked if I needed help,
Tried to save me,
Or at least asked if I were okay.

It was also windy.
The winds were so strong
They nearly knocked me down!
But they never did.
Instead I just kept walking,
Walking with courage.
Looking forward, moving forward.


After I walked and shivered for what felt like an eternity, I look for a building. A warm place of shelter to rest and warm up before facing the storm again. I spot a building. What building is it? I don't know, I don't care. I just walk in.

The building is warm right when I enter. Warm both in temperature and appearance. It has pleasant white, yellow, and goldish hues. It’s a little lacking in size but a good, comfortable space. I want to ask where I am but no one sits behind the information desk. So I take a seat on the nearest bench, snatch off my gloves and shake the cold rainwater off my folder that I was using as a shield. I slip my cold, numb hands under my shirt and press them to my abdomen, transferring my body heat to them. They feel icy cold against my skin. I briefly close my eyes and exhale, finally glad to be in shelter. My head slightly turns to my right, my eyes open. I'm surprised at what I see. A wall full of brochures, pamphlets, flyers, and, I believe, post cards. They all display religious and spiritual content. I see a couple of pamphlets that say "Associated Campus Ministries." So that's where I am! I see many other flyers and pamphlets on service work, community events, missionary work, and group meetings. I then see a pamphlet that really gets me: It has a painting of JESUS holding a lamb lovingly. Jesus is looking down at the lamb smiling. It made me smile.



I continue looking around, observing the atmosphere. Right across from me I see a small, round table with two chairs opposite of each other. I see the Holy Bible and some other devotional books stacked on top of the table. I then look to the left and see a stand of brand new Bibles, New Testament books, and more devotional books. I wonder for a second how much they would cost. But I then see a small sign on the stand that says that the books are complimentary and to take as many as you need. That is wonderful. This place is wonderful. I suddenly get a sense of God's presence. I feel as though He's near. I also feel so at peace that I forget the raging storm outside. I close my eyes and I smile slightly, breathing in the serenity of this beautiful setting.

I hear footsteps approaching but I keep my eyes closed, not wanting to open them.

"Hey," I heard a male voice say. It sounded quite friendly. I open my eyes and turn quickly to look at him. I must have looked surprised because he asked me, "Did I startle you?"

"Oh, no," I said. "You're fine."

He walks closer to me. I tense up a little. "You doing alright?"

"Yeah," I said, barely meeting his eye. "I'm a little better now."

"You seem cold," he said, smiling.

I nod and look down, just remembering that my hands are underneath my shirt. "Oh, gosh!" I exclaim, quickly pulling them out. "This is embarrassing!"

He chuckles, "It's alright, don't worry. Uh, did you just come from outside?"

"Yeah," I sighed. "I was just walking back to my dorm room."

"Wow! In this weather?"

"Unfortunately. I missed my last shuttle bus and I didn't know it was going to rain."

"Aww," he said. "You didn't have anyone who could drive you?"

"No," I said, frowning. "I'm new here, so I don't really know anyone...just yet."

"Well," he said. "That's not going to last much longer." He extends his hand, "I'm Bryan, what's your name?"

I look up at him and shake his hand, "I'm Chelle."

"Well, Chelle, it's very nice to meet you." Bryan smiles at me.

"Thanks, you too." I said, smiling back.

"So," says Bryan. "What brings you to Campus Ministries?"

"Um, wow, I didn't even know what I walked into at first," I said, laughing. "I just needed some shelter for a few minutes."

Bryan nodded his head. "I totally understand."

A few seconds of silence passed by. "So," Bryan cuts in. "I hope you don't mind me asking, but are you Christian?"

"Yes," I said, nodding affirmatively.

"Well, you've come to the right place." Bryan says with optimism. “We’re all having a small service down the hall in the Baptist room. Why don’t you come in and join us? It’ll be good for you.”

I hesitated a little, not knowing what it’s going to be like. “Um, thanks,” I started. “But I don’t know if I can—“

“Come on,” Bryan said gently. “It’s a small group. It’ll be fun. I’m sure a beautiful girl like you would really like it, and there are free donuts! Now I know you want donuts.”

“Donuts?” I say quickly, looking up at him. I ponder for a few seconds. I am hungry and surely God has brought me here for a reason, and perhaps this is it. Maybe I needed to hear a spiritual word right about now.

“Okay,” I said with a grin. “Sure, why not?”

“Great,” Bryan said. He sounded excited. “But first, let’s get you out of this wet coat.”

“Right,” I replied.

“I’ll give you warm blanket too. Would you like some hot chocolate along with that?”

“Please,” I said firmly as I took off my drenched light brown pea coat.

“Sure thing,” Bryan said, taking my coat.

“Thank you.”

I follow Bryan to the beverage machine. He hands me my hot cocoa in a small, plain white cup. I thank him and he smiles a\t me and leaves for a moment. I take a sip of the cocoa. It was just right. Not too hot, too sweet, nor too bitter. It’s perfect. I take another long sip and gaze out the window at the cold, pouring rain. It’s funny how it looks so cold outside yet I feel so warm in here, maybe because I’m being shown love. I’m in an atmosphere where I feel an infinite presence and I can imagine being surrounded by godly people. It must be the the best feeling showing hospitality to strangers who really need it, especially in such a situation like mine. It's such a blessing.

I feel a warm, soft blanket slip over my shoulders thus breaking into my thoughts. Bryan gently wraps a purple blanket around my shoulders leaving a lingering hand on my right arm. I look up at him slowly with my eyes wide and my mouth slightly agape, taken away in awe of his kindness. He just looked at me with a grin. He chuckles and says, “Is it comfortable?”

“Uh huh,” I utter, still staring at him. I take another good sip of my hot cocoa.

“Good! Let’s go.” He leads me to the Baptist room.

Bryan begins to speak but I drift away in my own thoughts again. Oh my gosh. This guy has to be some kind of angel. It’s like he came right out of Heaven. He’s adorable, just adorable. Did God send him for me? Let me not go too far just yet. We haven’t really gotten to know each other. Maybe we will. For all I know he could be dating someone. Then again, maybe he’s not. Does he like me? Probably. I can tell by the way he looks at me; that lingering hand he left on my shoulder after giving me this blanket, I noticed it. And he thinks I'm beautiful. That's got to mean something, right? Well, I know that I like him so far and I hope and pray that he stays around somehow.




Thursday, May 29, 2014

Singleness is a Gift







May 28, 2014

I always used to wonder why a person like me is still single. Just about every day, I hear of couple getting together as boyfriend/girlfriend, getting engaged, and even tying the knot. It would just make me think, “When is something like that going to happen to me?”

Back when I was living on a college campus this past spring semester, literally everywhere I looked I saw a loving couple. And here I caught myself without a hand to hold, no one to wrap an arm around my shoulder, you know, things of that nature. The more I saw such displays on campus, the more I wanted it for myself, the lonelier I felt, and, admittedly, I felt a little jealous. And Lord knows I’m not one who is easy to become jealous. I would always wonder, why doesn't God bless me with a special someone? Am I not ready just yet? What’s going on?

Prior to Valentine’s Day this year, I was sitting in my dorm room. No one was there at the moment, so that led me to ponder. I just remembered seeing so many couples around me and the fact that I’m single really got to me. All of these crazy thoughts entered my head: “What’s wrong with me?” “Do I not show myself enough?” “Am I too quiet?” “Am I not unique enough?” I now realize that Satan had snuck into my thoughts. I started to get teary eyed and I cried for a minute or two. I was probably feeling that way because Valentine’s Day was coming up (I was never a fan because I was never one’s sweetheart on that day).

One day during the semester, I was having an insightful conversation with a close friend, Victoria, who I met that same semester (I like to call us “sisters from another mister”). She also happens to be single so she understands what I’m going throughJ! I remember she was telling me how having a boyfriend during college years is very distracting. It could throw me off my studies and the possible drama of the relationship could have me under stress on top of dealing with college responsibilities. Okay, now, I have no experience in a college relationship so I don’t know what it’ll really be like. Victoria made such a good point saying that singleness is a gift. We have nothing to distract us from our personal goals or any drama that’s being added to our lives. This isn’t to say that I perceive relationships as being drama-filled—all relationships have different levels of drama for different reasons—but there are people (me included) who may not be ready for that just yet.

Maybe I should change my perspective on being single. I prayed one night and asked God to help me view my singleness as a gift, a blessing and something to not be so pouty about. The very next day, I went out on campus and saw plenty of couple at nearly every corner. I was not bothered by the sight anymore. I was actually happy! I was just happy in general. I don’t know what God did to my heart, but I’m thankful that He did because I no longer viewed being single as a problem anymore. I was finally at peace.

I always looked at marriage as a gift. Being blessed with that special someone (soul mate) who loves you, every inch and every curve, every perfection and imperfection, every strand of hair. I've always fantasized what that will be like for me. To be honest, I see a picture of heavenly bliss. That’s just me. Call me unrealistic, na├»ve, anything. But I believe something so beautiful can happen to me. And I believe that it will. But until then, I have to look as being single as a gift. No distractions. Perhaps God is protecting me from ungodly men, preparing me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually for that special someone who is not perfect, but perfect for me. Maybe God, and I say this very humbly, looks at me and think that I’m too valuable in His sight to just be with anyone. Kindness, spirituality, beauty, love, peace, intelligence, sensitivity, patience, gentleness, serenity, purity, humility, courage, and loyalty. I possess all of those qualities. It’s so good to know that God has someone who is just suited enough for me and perfect for me out there. And I’m pretty sure that God is getting HIM ready too (whoever he may be!).

I can’t wait for that day. But I must. I must be patient and continue praying that God will rid any insecurity that I have and prepare me for the relationship that I always wanted.

SO, until then, while I’m single, I will carry myself like the queen I am, live, laugh, enjoy life and one day, attract my king.

I’ll end on this note: being single is not a pain, but a blessing. It keeps us protected, humble, and patient. This is a time for us to find ourselves, focus on our relationship with God, and work on loving ourselves first. We are LOVED, by God and so many others. We’ll find that one, or that one will find us.


Monday, May 5, 2014

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I have nothing to do, but everything to do at the same time...! Quite a paradox. :P

Sunday, January 12, 2014

On My Own Now

So the big day finally came when I arrive on a college campus for the first time. Yes, a quiet, inexperienced young lady of 24 years like myself leaving the nest to venture out on her own. What was the transition like? How did I feel during the drive to University of North Carolina Greensboro? How did I feel when I first got a naked-eye glance of the large campus? How do I feel now?

To be completely honest, the full reality hasn't set in just yet. I believe it will when I start my classes tomorrow! The reality kicked in partially when I moved into my dorm (no roommate by the way!). I was thinking "Yes, I'm finally here!"


The drive up here started off normal. Meaning that it was a mere 30-minute drive from my hometown Winston-Salem, NC to Greensboro. On the way I just remember thinking, "Thank you God! Thank you for bringing me this far!!" Mom and I were conversing and she and I (especially she) were trying not to get too emotional. As we entered Greensboro and as we were getting closer and closer to our destination, that's when my heart started pounding. I had mixed emotions of course: excitement, sadness, nervousness, eagerness, accomplishment.


We finally arrived on college grounds. I was looking around at the buildings and taking in the moment. The campus is huge (a friend told me later that the more I got around, the smaller it will get). Mom and I met my stepdad, Fred, and we all moved my things into my dorm. It's a lot bigger than the photos made it seem. Here's what it looked like on my very first day:




As the days and weeks go by, I feel that it's going to be more "lived in" and look a little more like home. It's starting to look that way now. 


I feel like I have my own apartment!


I know my family had a difficult time with me leaving home and of course I felt bad about leaving them so soon. My mother had the most butterflies. The good thing is, though, when she saw the college environment and how friendly most of the people are, she felt more relived and relaxed. She told me, "You're going to be just fine. You're going to have a wonderful time." I must say that I'm very proud of her. I told her before I left that this experience is going to make us both stronger people. And God is already giving us strength during this time. It's just going to get better from here.


One of my biggest concerns, especially being that I don't have a roomie (I'm enjoying it by the way [living with a total stranger can be nerve wracking]) was being lonely. As I mentioned earlier I'm such a quiet girl, so making a lot of friends was always difficult for me. I'd make plenty eventually, but not exactly on the first day like most people did. But in this case it was different. To my astonishment, I made two friends on my very first day moving in and we had dinner together! And most of the people living in my dorm are very friendly. I met a few more people a couple of days later. :) So with that being said, I don't think loneliness will be an issue (I can always call or text friends or family members).


So within the next few days I had orientation and got my financial situation taken care of, walked around campus to familiarize myself so I don't look like a lost goose on the first day, saw some student groups I wanted to join (not right away, but a little later during the semester), and got to know some people. Yep, I can tell I'm going to have an amazing time here. I already am. :)


Another great thing that's happened this week is finding a church to go to. Thanks to one of my best friends, Toshia (pronounced "Tasha"), who happens to live in Greensboro. We went just this morning and I can tell that I'm going to like it! BUT, you know, I will always have my church at home.


Well, my first day of class is tomorrow. I'm so excited! I think the full reality is going to kick in now. I'm ready for the week ahead!


I just keep my family in my prayers (they're over protective when it comes to me, understandable!).


Thanks for reading! God bless all of you! xoxo

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Good Morning From God

From this morning:

I enjoy waking up early in my bed with the sun shining in my face. It's like getting a kiss—a good morning kiss—from God. It's a if He's saying:

         "I have blessed you with another day of life. I love you and I am here for you every step of the way. Enjoy your day!"

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Things Unseen Are Eternal...

On the night of January 2nd:

All I can say today is, relax and have faith. Lately I've been so preoccupied with my current situation regarding school. I prayed and asked God to reveal to me whether I should do anything about it or just sit back and let Him take care of me. Minutes later, I found myself with a posted note and this is what I wrote:


And there it was! God revealed it to me! I read it over a few times until my anxiety subsided.

Have faith! It is written in the Good Book that faith is being certain of things that are unseen. I believe!! I believe in the good things that are unseen.

If you look at only what is in front of you, you know, things that you actually can see, it's easy to get thrown off and discouraged. So it's important to trust God's will and believe in things that are unseen. Let's not become driven or distracted by what we do see. For it is also written (and this verse just popped in my head):


**This verse really puts me at ease.**

God bless you all!

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Welcome!

Welcome all to my blog "Living A Beautiful Life." I somehow lost access to my old blog so I had to start a whole new one and this one is here to stay! I really don't know what to write right now...I guess I'll just begin with me :)

My name is Brittany Orie. 24-year-old college student majoring in English and minoring in psychology. I'm actually very shy in person but given a pen and paper, I have a lot to say. I'm an aspiring writer. I hope to inspire and encourage people through my writing and also through spiritual counseling (in the future!). I have a desire to help others, as well as a desire to travel the world. One day!

How did I come about writing?? It's a latent talent, actually. I discovered it almost 4 years ago when I was in community college. This may sound insane, but I was riding the city bus home one day just daydreaming as usual. It hit me that express myself through writing. I was like "Wow! This is what I should do!" I've done a lot of writing in the past for school and when I looked back on it, I noticed that my voice is very active through writing and it is in writing where I can release my imagination. I remember telling this story to a good friend of mine, Reynita, and she just told me that God spoke to me. And He did! On a city bus! But, hey, God speaks to us anywhere we go.

I don't want to ramble right now, but you'll learn more about me through my blog posts. I will be posting very often (especially now that I'm going to be all on my own at a university) so stay with me here! 

Love you all!!